“Hey, i’m in a wheelchair now.”
Because i can’t for the life of me figure it out.
A friend that i have a really weird dynamic with is in town all of next week — it’s been yearrrrrrrrrs since i’ve seen said friend and likely to be yearrrrrrrrrrs before i’ll see them again. But they texted tonight to say they’d like to meet up, and i feel like it’s a mess.
…Mostly because said friend used to be attracted to me, and while obviously it’s a moot point because my partner is so AWESOME, aforementioned friend is incredibly, incredibly hot. Like, they have the hotness of the gods. And said friend has met a LOT of women. A lot of HOT, ACCOMPLISHED (and sometimes even famous) women. And the bottom line is that my ego has taken a beating already from this stupid syndrome and i would just like to keep the thought in my head that they found me attractive.
(Yes, that’s a stupid and incredibly shallow thing to let stroke my ego, but like i said… weird dynamic.)
Ughhhhhh. It’s not even about the wheelchair. It’s about the “hey, i’m completely not how you remember me” bit. Because i was Superwoman when last we parted.
i don’t even know. i wish this was more constructive, but it’s not, so there we go.